Jeudi

Sometimes I really scare myself.

Today was...

Well I'm not going to try and say it out loud.  A, because I wouldn't even begin to know how to word it.  And B, I know it would sound immensely weird, not to mention sort of unbelievable.

It feels as though the life has been drained out of me.  Even as I type this I feel like all I am is fading further.  I feel used, I don't feel real.