So how do I do normal?

I'm a slow motion accident - lost in coffee rings, and finger prints.

I'm still trying to figure it out.....but in the meantime I do what I can to not think about it.


Things like this:

I know it's wrong.  And it's not healthy - but it's distracting enough.

I try to avoid it - but sometimes I can't stop myself. The cuts get deeper every time and I worry that I might go too far.

But when I can breathe again it's ok.  and it doesn't hurt that bad.....at least nothing compared to the inside.